Ah yes, dear readers, I have been on a hiatus (not the same as a vacation) for many months from this site. Much has happened to me since then. I took a part-time job working as a weekend receptionist in an upscale retirement home in a beautiful neighborhood right on the lake. It was an adjustment for me - a solo player, pseudo entrepreneur type. It took me a while to catch on to the office procedures. I had to put my ego aside to observe the demands of the job. I learned to love working with the clients, even it was something as menial as making copies on the copy machine for them. (Well, I'm still working on that one.) Anyway, things are turning out pretty well, and I think my boss is learning to trust me more.
With only my small income from the job, and my small social security check each month, I did'nt know if I could continue to live alone - apart from my husband. Would I have to go back to him when my lease on my tiny studio was up? Somehow, it all worked out, and I was able to move into a biigger apartment in a low-income property. The neighborhood is low-income as well. My husband (we're not divorced yet) was willing to give me some money each month, just enough so I could get by. My dog and I are happy where we are now, and still remain close to our favorite dog park.
I received some inheritance money in February, and invested most of it, but kept enough to do some things I wanted and needed to do: buy some clothes, get my dental implants, decorate my apartment, and makeg a quick trip to Mexico next month. I'm also going to work with a hypnotherapist who specializes in the subconscious. Alleviating the tension in my mind and body has been my goal ever since my tranquilizers stopped working months ago. We will be spending two hours together, on Skype, from my home. Not the usual patient/doctor protocol, but its the only thing he offers right now, since he'll be in France
Lastly, I've decided to take the modeling class where I took the acting classes last year, (already paid for) and pay to get on the rolls of the acting studio. Its a bit of money, and it may all be in vain, but i'm turning over every rock I stumble across to see if there's anything there. All in the interest of opening myself up to life, and getting off my couch. I'm also trying to sell advertising for a neighborhood business blog.
I guess I'm just trying to make my life interesting. I would like to meet some interesting people I could entertain in my home. I'm hungering for stimulating converstaion with people I can connect with.
I know now that I have many facets to my personality, and I'm not just an' either/or'.. I want to relax and enjoy my facets. Its a little more daunting than what I'm used to, but I'm ready for the next step.
when I say that 'image is not enough' what I'm saying is that image is only skin deep. Its what lies beneath the skin, in our head and in our hearts, that makes us truly human.
